Lately I've been sort of in my own world. Sort of pulling away from everyone; just being solitary. And as I'm in my own world I got to thinking about how our lives are a series of connections. Everything we do is defined on how we interact with others, the connections we make with them. Because ultimately that's what pushes us forward. Whether the connection is a best friend, or just a random person you ride the bus with, that is essentially your life.
Sort of annoying considering it's one of the only ways to measure your life. Whether the connections you have with someone are good or bad, strong or barely there, it's a connection.
For example, today I was explaining to my mom today about the War of the Currents and how Tesla and Edison basically attacked each other's characters and hurt a lot of animals/people to prove their points(i.e. Edison killing Topsy the Elephant with AC current). And if you think about it, the fact that I know about the War of the Currents is in fact a connection. Granted, it's a weak one, but it's through knowing their contributions for the world that they is still connected to all of us.
Which means for someone like me, who sort of dislikes talking to people, the world sort of really sucks...
But then who is to say this is really a bad thing? Isn't it amazing, that human beings as a species are so connected? Like think about it, you could potentially meet the most important person in your entire life tomorrow. Or you could meet your most hated enemy... But the potential of the connection is the most important thing to consider. Connections are high in number and always existent, whether we want them to be there or not.
So I guess in the end, what we decide to do with these connections is really up to us.
IMHO...
ReplyDeleteBe careful with your self-imposed exile. Really, I might be the worst person to be saying what I'm about to say...but I think it's important to make an effort to go out of your way to maintain connections.
I understand that it's been a rough 3 months, not being at home, living alone in a new city...it's socially difficult. The thing is that given your new school path, I think you overestimate the connections you're going to keep with your uni friends in the future. If you don't make an effort, the connections will fade quickly, I guarantee that.
Really, you don't *need* anyone in life. People come and go and every person is able to survive without 99.9% of the people that go through their lives. But...should life be led that way? I also had a bit of a social exile during the last few years. I'd cancel/bail out on plans with my high school friends, my closest and best friends, to play WoW. After bailing over and over, they got the hint and eventually, stopped calling me to chill. Years later and while I'm still close with them, I've lost time and my connection strength with them weakened whereas all of theirs got stronger. And now, I'm trying to play catch up...
Again, given one of my recent posts, what I've written above is quite contradictory to how I live my life. However...we're also different people socially, despite some similarities.
Just saying...please don't shut yourself off from the world. It's everyone's loss...for the potential you can have with new people, as well as the connections you already have. It is your decision to do what you want with these connections but I wanted to throw in my thoughts...it's a slippery slope you're on...if you don't want it to spiral out of control, you're going to have to make an effort...