Movies & 2010?!??!?!?!

So on Monday I saw Avatar for the second time in 3D with the family. And well… I think I preferred it not in 3D simply because it was a lot easier to concentrate on the plot aside from the graphics. Although I admit the scenes in the beginning where Jake was being chased were amazing in 3D. Really makes you feel like you’re there with him you know?

Anyways the point of this post is to talk about movies. The act of actually sitting in a room with about 100 other people and watching the same thing on a screen. Like the first thing that comes to mind is how the person sitting directly in front of you can be your own worst enemy for the course of 2—3 hours. Then after the movie is done you don’t even care about that person any more then you do your discarded garbage.

Then there are overall group feelings. Like sometimes when you watch a movie you’re inclined to laugh more because you feel the people in the room would laugh too. But then there are times when you watch a movie and even though you would laugh out loud at some jokes, you don’t because no one else does. There is also the example of screaming girls shouting ‘I LOVE YOU EDWARD’. You know you separate these girls into different rooms, the chances of them destroying your eardrums is much less.

I just think its weird how society functions sometimes and how we can get caught up so easily into fantasy.

Anyways so 2010 is coming up and I think it’s time for some resolutions :o!?!?!?!?

First resolution is not to spam ?!?!?!?!?

Lol, okay. My resolution this year is sort of simple. When I get to the end of 2010 I want to be able to say I did something. That I accomplished something notable in which years from now I can say ‘In 2010 I did this’. Simply because when I think back about 2009 all I can think about is the things that happened to me. I can’t really distinguish anything that I did that’s worth noting.

So that’s it. I’ll see you guys in 2010!

Meet Me Halfway

So that Black Eyed Peas song ‘Meet Me Halfway’ is so good. I don’t know what it is about it, but I can listen to that song over and over in a loop and never get sick of it.

Anyways, so I’m done school and now I need to deal with the aftermath. So we’ll see how that goes. In a few days I’m going to move out to a different city for my co-op. I’m doing website work for the next 4 months :o The place where I’m staying is supposed to have internetz but I think it’s sort of crappy. So I’ll probably update less around here.

On another note I saw Avatar yesterday. Unfortunately it was not in 3D since it sold out and I happened to fall asleep about an hour before I was supposed to go to the movies… I hadn’t slept at all that night! So it’s justifiable!

It was a very good movie, sure the plot is recycled and it was, as a lot of people are saying like a mix of all previous James Cameron movies. But it was still very good! Just because a plot is recycled does not mean it’s not good or enjoyable. I really want to go back and watch it in 3d though, I feel like I missed out on a big part of the experience without 3d.

The one thing that stuck out the most to me was how much the Na’vi were meant out to be the good guys. When it comes to stories like this we’re always exposed to one side so we can root for them. And that got me thinking of a good story idea. But I won’t tell you. It’s really interesting though and it plays on the whole ‘underdog’ concept and how our position of a conflict is mainly based on which side we are exposed to more and what we are told about the opposing side.

Anyways, off to read. Ciao~

Fun with Google!

So I was bored and I thought, hey, why don’t I start typing questions into Google and see what comes up in the search!

Why are so many people asking if Edward Cullen dies? Also, why is it that when all I type is ‘Edward’ everything is about Edward Cullen? What about people like Ed Elric? Pssshttt.

Wtf is a byronic hero? *Wikis* OH wow. I learned something new today! The fact that it is possible that not everyone who uses the internet is completely stupid and uses terms like byronic. Interesting….

Also I feel slightly ashamed for being a writer and not knowing that. Then again, I didn’t exactly take any English courses outside of the required ones because Math, Science and Programming consume my soul.

Is anybody there? Lol. This restores my faith in the internet as a whole being moronic.

Depending on where in the DBZ series you are, Goku could be dead, and he could be alive. But also, ‘Is Goku stronger than Superman?’ That is actually a good question… Hm… But man, why is the most results always for ‘Is __________ real?’ Honestly, do you really need to google this?

LOLOLOLOL. Omg. Wow. LOOOOLLLLLL. Okay. That pretty much speaks for itself. Although, yes, Drake is Jimmy from Degrassi who wanted to be a rapper. And ended up being a rapper IRL. Sort of funny how things work out like that.

When is my birthday? … o_O

My dad is not a phone. Wow. How insightful.

It took me a second to get what ‘Is iron man made or natural’. Again, why is all the results ‘Is ______ real?’ or ‘Is _______ dead?’

Wtf… Jewish? Republican? Australian? Bipolar? I can get the sober one, but like, seriously?

Why is Yahoo so important in determining if Kakashi is dead? And… Does anyone really think Masashi Kishimoto would say whether or not Kakashi is a virgin? … -___-

LASTLY:

This just makes me sad. No one apparently cares about Shikamaru enough to search him T_T Waahhhh.

Programming?

So when I frequent the blogs of other people that I go to school with they all seem to have one thing in common: Programming. And how often do I blog about programming? Like never. Soooo I’m a little conflicted. All I ever blog about is my writing. So does that suggest that my passion actually lies in writing and not in programming? Like don’t get me wrong, I like programming. And well… the ‘like’ sort of says it all right there. I love writing, and I like programming.

Blah, oh realizations. Perhaps it’s because I haven’t gotten seriously into a programming project for a while. Maybe that’ll make me feel enthusiastic about it. I do have programs and projects I have planned that I want to do, but I never really have time for them. For writing on the other hand, I tend to make room.

I already know that even though I am studying Software Engineering, if I can make a living off of writing, I will. Perhaps I’ll do something a friend told me about a while ago. Just contract out programming jobs as a secondary source of income. I don’t know. I just need some motivation. A reason to program aside from the ’school tells me to’ excuse.

I’m sure everyone in my class who is reading this is thinking ‘Why are you in SE if you don’t love to program?’ (I have a feeling Jeff is thinking this), and well I did love to program. In high school it was my easiest and favourite class. Now I’d rather write than study. Ah, I don’t know. I guess I’ll figure it out during my co-op where I’m actually programming this time.

Speaking of those projects though, I think I’m going to like completely upscale EOE and sort of try to create a new quizilla. Because obviously the only one who still cares about Quizilla is the mods, and it’s probably because they get paid to do it. >_> I figured I should try out doing a larger scale web project as opposed to just running a few websites.

Ok, I’m going to bed now (very reluctantly).

Night!

EDIT: New layout! What do you guys think :)?

Inspiration?

Today as I was compiling a list of books that I want to read during my co-op work term in January I started to look into Living Dead Girl by Elizabeth Scott. I watched a video where she explained that she had the same dream three nights in a row and after that she just had to tell Alice’s story. Then that got me to thinking, what pushes someone to just write? Like why is it so important to writers to get this ONE person’s story out there? They’re not technically real people, and truth be said, they won’t be disappointed if they don’t become the next Bella Swan or Harry Potter, having their story loved (or loathed in the case of Bella) by so many.

So why do we feel like people need to know them? It’s really odd. Today I started a story that I had no intention of starting for another couple of years, until after the trilogy I had planned is finished. But the need of the characters’ stories to be told just over took me. These two characters, their story is so intertwined with each other even though they technically never meet in person. And I just feel like they can’t sit back and wait for me to be ready for them. I feel like I’m being forced into this, that’s how strong their need is.

And here I am talking about them like they’re real, like they hold influence over me. But they do. They really do. -__- This is what happens when you’re a writer. At least, in my definition of writing anyways. Now 250 words later I have started this story which will probably be finished before any other story I’m writing right now.

Otherwise, I got Adam Lambert’s new album. I always liked him since Idol and I have to say I really enjoy his album, completely and thoroughly. It’s rare when I like EVERY song on an album but this one is just really good. I realize now just how sexual For Your Entertainment is…. o_O But my favourites have to be: Whataya Want From Me, If I Had You, Music Again, and For Your Entertainment.

Actually the only thing I like from Music Again is really the chorus when they say ‘Oh you make me want to listen to music again’.

Ok, I’m off to do stuff. See ya~

Thomas Edison = Douche.

So if you haven’t looked on my twitter, I explain that I hate Thomas Edison now because Assassin’s Creed 2 has made me aware of something. To try to fuck Tesla up, Edison said that AC current was dangerous, and proved it by electrocuting an elephant.

Now I’m all for science and the battles between scientists to disprove each other. I know that both Tesla and Edison did some crazy shit when they were battling. And apparently, Topsy the elephant was already supposed to be killed due to the fact that she killed 3 men and attacked her trainer multiple times. But still, you don’t electrocute an elephant. And what’s even worse is HE TAPED IT.

When Assassin’s Creed 2 started to show a clip of Electrocuting an Elephant I cringed and closed my eyes. I don’t know why this bothers me so much. Animal cruelty, and animals suffering is something that has always easily affected me. If you’re looking to piss me off, or alternatively, get me crying that is the way. The fact that Edison not only killed Topsy, but multiple animals just to prove a point is so utterly disgusting and just mind blowing that I don’t really know what else to say.

And the worst part is, in the end Tesla won anyways, so Topsy’s death was publicized for nothing.

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On a side note, I’m utterly addicted to Assassin’s Creed 2. Not only is Ezio the hottest thing ever (even though Desmond looks just like Ezio, I still dislike him because he’s not really an assassin >_>), the game is just utterly addicting. I’m about half way through the game, but only because I have done all the secondary memories and gotten all the treasures that I can up to Venice. Yes, I even went back to the Mountains to get the 10ish chests that were along the path.

I’m almost done with Sky’s Content 15. I’ve done a first draft, almost done my first revision of it. I wrote about 3/4 of the chapter where this one decision that someone makes (which is VITAL to the plot) set. Then I think ‘What if they do the opposite?’ And this whole rush of inspiration came to me. Holy crap. It’s awesome. So now that plot is majorly different. Well sort of. I still do something I planned before hand, but it only takes like… 7 more chapters to get to it.

Anyways, off to sleep. I got class tomorrow. Only two more weeks of classes and I’m done until May! I’m really loving this coop thing. Man.

Bad Romance

I’m obsessed with the new Lady Gaga song. Oh my god. It’s making me want to write. Woo~

So I managed to secure myself a web developer job for school :o That means I’ll be doing what I normally do for the site for moneyz! Yay.

Also, school sucks. It’s so horribly busy. BUSY BUSY. It never ends.

Oh and, Supernatural is amazing. Supernatural > Everything. I mean like, they actually furthered the plot by taking information that the characters were never going to know by making someone write books about the series in the series and have the information told to them at a later date. You don’t really do that when you’re a writer, since that’s like a big cheat and cop out plot wise… but it’s GENIUS. I’m jealous.

Plus, they’re doing a lot of spoofing lately. Of other shows and themselves. When Sam and Dean were spoofing David Caruso, OMG, so funny. And the Grey’s Anatomy one was pretty good too :p OH and (K)night Rider. That was awesome.

And I only bring up how awesome Supernatural is because Angela was glad Vampire Diaries beat it as she pointed out in her tweet: “Ha! Vamp Diaries bumped Supernatural. Win.” >=/

I’m just teasing. But seriously, Vampire Diaries is horribly addicting and all but I’m a hardcore Supernatural fan. Supernatural is just #1 for me always.

Anyways so it’s been a rough week for me. Dreams. God. Dreams really suck sometimes. And I say dreams and not nightmares for a reason. It just sucks when you have dreams of something you REALLY want but realize you’re never going to have it. And so the dream would be amazing but then you’re left hurt when you wake up because you realize it was only a dream.

I want your love and

I want your revenge

You and me could write a bad romance~~~~

Sicknessssss

Once I made that category for doctors when I had that braces issue in like June, I never thought I would use it again. I was wrong. Basically, I’ve been sick since the second week of October which if you can’t do the math, is about three weeks. The first week I had migraines. The second week I had a bad cold. The third week I’m pretty sure I had the flu. That’s right, I got a cold AND the flu back to back. Well it might have been h1n1, I dunno, it was some sort of flu-like sickness.

This past week alone I have been in the school’s medical centre twice, and in a hospital. Not to mention it was the first time I ever threw up in a sink. Which happened to be in a fully occupied, public washroom.

Today when I went to the hospital instead of writing my midterm that I had, I was stuck waiting for about three hours. In those three hours I went from REALLY bad, to normal because you know, it was three hours. But I realized something… Stress is a bitch. And apparently has been winning the battle for all of October.

Other than that, the first week I got sick happened to coincide with the beginning of interviews.And let me just say I am SICK of interviews, holy hell. I had 3+ interviews a week, every week, for a month. Oh god. So many missed classes… Gah!

I know I said last week that I would celebrate the end of midterms by doing something on the site, well I spoke too soon. I happen to have a programming assignment and an entire lab to do for Monday So screw the fact that I was hospitalized today, I got work to do! =D

Ha ha.

Kill me now.

Oh and before I forget. Happy Halloween!

One More Week

One more week of busing everyday to school in the morning for an hour. I’ve been taking the bus everyday since the first day, September 14 and I only have one more week to go before my dad finishes his course and can go back to his regular work schedule. I’ll be able to sleep in until 8 on Monday, Wednesday and Friday, and then until 7:30 on Tuesday/Thursday. That’s amazing.

In other news, new layout :o I still want to change the sidebars a little bit. I don’t like the bars of blue. But for now this will do since I have about a million other things I need to do. I did some work on EOE today, mostly back end stuff that the users will never see. I updated the layout for Angela’s and I’s administration panel and fixed up some queries that weren’t working right.

Now I’m in my second year of university and this semester is supposed to be the hardest one. I can now see that since there is so much to do and yet you only have 24 hours in a day to do it. I feel like, if days were 34 hours long, I would probably be okay. But for now, I don’t have any room of spirit and time so normal days will have to do. (5 stars for anyone who gets that reference.)

Also I’ve been spending some time the past couple of days thinking about Yuri and Shikamaru and all the different things that could happen to them in about… 8 chapters. I’ve also been listening to some Naruto music and it’s put me in a really anxious mood to write chapter 15. I’m about half way through it, I just need to finish it. Perhaps after midterms I’ll celebrate by writing… Or I’ll procrastinate by writing. *Cough* I mean, take breaks from studying by writing.

(How do you think chapter 10 came out in like a day? lol)

And I’m thinking of either writing up a program do something, or adding something to this site. Not quite sure what I’m going to do yet. We’ll see.

Anyways, I got stuff to do (as always). Bye~

School has taken over my life? NO WAI

Yes. So unfortunately I’ve befallen the tragic fate that is the ‘my-life-is-so-busy-with-tests-and-interviews-everyday-that-I-don’t-have-time-for-the-website’-itis. Ok, so I do make some time here and there as I have a brand new version created for version 3 of the site. The previous PSD wasn’t really working for me so I scrapped it and started new. I think it went pretty well and I plan to code it sometime in the near future which will probably be in… Ok. Let’s just say near future.

Aside from school work and interviews I spent all of Saturday figuring out how to dual boot my laptop with Windows 7 and Ubuntu. Previously I had Windows Vista Home Premium on it, but since my school gave us the release candidate for Windows 7, and since I’ve been meaning to install Ubuntu I figured why not!

Now that I am the proud owner of a linux operating system I plan to try out this LAMP (Linux Apache MySQL PHP) environment that all these employers seem so eager to have. Also, Linux = Win.

I’ve also spent some time working on my stories. I’m hashing out the tiniest details about my characters now as I try to figure out which way to start the prologue. Today I discovered that one of my characters takes sleeping pills. It made so much sense I don’t know why I didn’t realize this sooner.

Anyone get the new Paramore album? For a good solid three weeks I listened to The Resistance from Muse on my long and horrible bus rides in the morning, but then when I got Brand New Eyes I found I couldn’t stop listening to it. My personal favourites include Misguided Ghosts, The Only Exception and Playing God.

One more thing. Why did the driver’s test examiners have to go on strike two weeks before my scheduled test on September 4^th? And why are they still on strike now on October 13^th? And why was the next available time for a test November 26^th? BAH.

EDIT: New layout up! I’ll probably mess around with it a bit more, but in the meantime, enjoy!

Work Report Procrastination? I Think So.

Huzzah! I’ve somehow survived the first week of school *throws confetti*.

So because of a certain driving test examiner strike (>=/) I’ve been taking a bus for one hour to school everyday. It’s sort of killer because I have to wake up two hours before my first class which means on Tuesday/Thursday I have to wake up at 6:30am. But the ride itself isn’t bad, I’ve been reading Bran Hambric and it passes the time pretty well.

Speaking of Bran Hambric, I finally got it in the mail on my birthday. FINALLY. Been waiting since May for that book. Review to come

Oh and did you get that little clue to what I’m going to about next in the last paragraph? MAH BIRFDAYZ. Lol, ok.

So on Tuesday I finally became of legal age to drink in Canada, one of the bigger milestones I would say. It’s funny because instead of going out that night and drinking the night away like any other of age person would, a couple of friends and I went for a single drink during the day because we all wanted to go home and work on our work reports.

Yay for being nerds! And yes, I was carded, and yes it was pretty good to show that I was old.

I finally managed to get some progress done on this stupid prologue for my book. I’ve rewritten it like 5 times (if I haven’t mentioned that before) and now I feel like I finally have something I can 100% use! Well I’m using one of the old prologues, editing it slightly and adding something to the beginning. At this point I just want to get the prologue done so I can finally START.

Also, I want to change this layout so badly. It’s been up since JULY. OMG. Any suggestions?

Elegy of Emptiness

I’ve finished all the work on Elegy of Emptiness! We now have a user panel completely coded by myself! Now those listed can edit their information whenever they want, view their listings without affecting the page views, view their rankings based off the page views AND add screenshots!

Angela and I didn’t want to add screenshots at first since some people edit their layouts once a week, and that would be too much for us to constantly change. BUT NOW you can go and change it whenever you change your layouts

I sent out an e-mail to everyone currently listed about their user name and passwords. Anyone listed from now on will get their username and password e-mailed to them after being added.

Oh and did I mention there’s a brand new layout? Done by myself It’s a simple layout, more functional than anything. Hope you guys like it!

And if you haven’t joined Elegy of Emptiness GO JOIN NOW!

EDIT: HEARTLESS PLUSHIE HAS BEEN LOCATED. BOW TO IT’S CUTENESS

Site Updates Soon?

I wanted to make this a separate post from the one I have below because although this will be short, it should be noticed.

I recently acquired the domain name consisting of my actual name, first and last :o. So I’m planning on making THAT my portfolio. I only bought onlyakiss.net for a year, so I figured I won’t renew it and just move the blog over to Sky’s Content again.

The question now is, if Sky’s Content isn’t a portfolio, what will I use it for :S? If anyone has any ideas that would be great. I was planning on using it for my own personal projects, but if there’s anything you guys want to see just add a comment.

Also, I’m planning a contest of some sorts. I still need to figure out some details, but there should be news about it soon.

OH and I almost forgot. I made the first version of ONLYAKISS.net a downloadable design. Go check it out here.

NEW STUFF!

So as I was sitting here thinking what to blog about I realized that I recently acquired a shit load of new stuff!

PICTURE TIME!

This is what happens when you leave your phone unguarded while looking for The Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time in your closet.

The new phone along with Gaara gourd key chain <3

T-shirt #1 that I happen to be wearing right now.

My other two shirts.

In all my years of conventions this was my first time seeing a Goku (from Dragonball) plushie. I bought it 10 seconds after I saw it.

The manga in which the characters from THIS layout is from. Meru Puri: Marchen Prince <3. I managed to get the whole series.

The Shikamaru keychain. I so desperately wanted a plushie, but Shikamaru plushies are ALWAYS ugly >=/

The one of the right is SIGNED by Linda Hamilton herself :) I plan to frame these when I move to my new room.

My most recent purchase. Set me back $300. AND THEY WERE USED BOOKS. Blah. Why does school have to take away all my hard earned money :(?

The heartless plushie appears to be MIA. I’ll post a picture of it when I find it. I need to clean my room again, this place is a mess.

Fan Expo Canada!

So I was MIA from the internet this past weekend because I went to this little convention in Toronto called Fan Expo Canada! 3 days, one hotel stay, and $300 later I have returned!

Fan Expo, if you don’t know, is like 5 conventions in one: Horror, Sci-fi, Comics, Gaming and Anime. All in one gigantic room. <3

On Friday I went to go see the Tron: Legacy Special Presentation, they took away our phones and cameras. Then after about a half an hour later the co-producer Justin Springer came out and showed us a whole bunch of concept art, as well as an exclusive clip to the film. In short, it was pretty freaking awesome.

After that I took a little trip to the Light cycle they had set up from the new Tron movie:

On Saturday one of the first things I did when I arrived was line up to go get Linda Hamilton’s autograph. Linda Hamilton played the original Sarah Connor in the first two Terminator movies. Now, since my childhood consisted of a million re-watches of said movies I HAD to go see her.

After about 45 minutes to an hour of waiting in line, I finally got to see her. She’s aged really well in my opinion and she was such a nice person. Plus, she said I was really pretty Here’s a photo I took after I got her autograph:

Later that day I went to a panel called Video game Industry: Overview and Opportunities Pro Panel. My friend and I had arrived there ten minutes early (would have been sooner if we didn’t have to go check in at the hotel), and the line was so long it started to go into the women’s washroom on the opposite side of the hallway. When we saw that I told my friend the only way we were getting in was by majorly cutting into the line. So we sat down by a pole that was near the line and once it started moving we sort of assimilated ourselves into the line. Needless to say, we got front row seats

It was a really fun and relaxed environment. It was just like a normal conversation you would have with someone, except five people were on a stage, and about a hundred or so people were sitting below watching them. They talked about the Video game Industry and how it’s evolving, what will be sort of the next big things, licensed games and their ability to sometimes not suck, and how Scott from Electric Playground was still single for a reason.

Here’s a shot I grabbed at the beginning of the panel:

The guy in the green is Scott. He was actually sort of cute XD.

After the convention closed we went to a restaurant just down the street, then about two hours later we actually got to eat. >_> I had ribs for the first time in my life, and I have to say… I prefer steak.

Then we chilled in the hotel room. Here’s a shot of the view from the window:

Then Sunday, first thing we were chilling around the Bruce Campbell signing because my friend REALLY wanted an autograph but didn’t get a ticket before they were sold out. Well, it was a good thing we were RIGHT there because they announced RIGHT then that they were selling 50 more tickets. My friend was about the 5^th person in line and was now able to get the drawing of Bruce Campbell she worked pretty hard on signed.

About two hours in line later, she had met him and gotten her thing signed. Here’s a pic of Bruce Campbell I took:

Along the way I managed to pick up:

• A Goku (from Dragonball) plushie
• Death the Kid & Shinigami figurines from Soul Eater
• A Linda Hamilton Autograph
• 3 t-shirts, one saying “Erase all humans” with an alien gun on it, one with a Zelda emblem and another of princess peach. (Pics will come later)
• The entire Meru Puri: Marchen Prince series
• Two Naruto cellphone chains (one of Gaara’s gourd, another of Shikamaru)
• A tiny Heartless plushie that will soon sit in my car

Overall my weekend was pretty awesome. Now I got to get to driving for my road test, fixing up my websites, and doing my work report. Blah.

Tutorial Blogs?

So now that my work term is almost over and I am headed back to school for another term, I started to fix up my resume. As I was doing this I realized that the programming languages I knew were either ones I learned in school, or ones I learned specifically for this website and/or my other websites. Which basically just includes PHP and MySQL.

I decided to start learning javascript since in my HTML, XHTML, CSS and other stuff book have a nice little thing on javascript in the other stuff section. Now I was thinking perhaps as I’m reading through the other stuff section I would make tutorial blogs for both my learning and for something to add to the site.

My question for you guys is, would you like to see this integrated into this blog, or make it into another subdomain and attach it to my network? I plan to do this for most of the languages I learn on my own (outside of school) so it becomes like a study guide and/or reference for the future. It would also help me to learn the stuff better and would look great on a resume.

SO, what do you guys think I should do? Putting it into this blog would be more convenient for me, but would be a bit harder to navigate. Putting it into a sub domain would be easier in the long haul as I add more languages, but is a lot of effort for me NOW which I am sort of really busy and don’t want to do it but know I should >_>

And if I do make it into a sub domain, what should I call it? Perhaps another Zelda song since Elegy of Emptiness was from Majora’s Mask. Hmm….

Question for the comments: (if you don’t feel like reading the whole blog) Should the tutorial blogs be it’s own sub domain or integrated into this blog?

School & Stories

It’s August and so school is looming over me as I realize that on September 15^th, a month from now it will be the second day of class (and ironically my birthday). School has always been a very… weird thing for me. When I moved to the city I currently reside in I was in fourth grade. The people in my elementary school and I didn’t really get along so I started to concentrate on school more than rough housing at recess. It was then that I discovered that I was one of those ‘gifted’ children, AKA people someone with a high enough IQ that it was noticeable how much more intelligent I was than others.

Once I started to excel in school it started to become the norm, and next thing you knew if I had anything less than 90% in anything it was a fail to me. I remember in grade 10 I was so angry when I learned my science grade was 87% that my religion teacher made a big fuss about how ‘In 10 years, grades won’t matter’. I’m still angry about that science class because I finished with an 89% in that course.

Then in grade 11 I was so angry at a 3+ (78%) I had received in ONE section of my math test that I proceeded to rip up a friend’s test (because he wouldn’t let me rip mine) into pieces so small that a paper shredder was no competition for me.

Then I hit university and next thing you know I give up on school. I had spent so many years trying and because of my high expectations having to deal with lots of disappointments. The -only- time I was ever satisfied with a grade was my grade 12 Physics mark because I had set out for a 95% in that course and got it.

Now that first year is done my average is around 74%, your ‘typical’ university average. Mind you this is the year that I gave up on school to the point where I actually didn’t hand in assignments because I was too lazy. So my mindset is, if I can get the normal average with NO EFFORT whatsoever, what can I get with 100% effort?

Well I intend on finding out next term. I’m tired of having such low grades. I don’t want to leave a midterm worried that I failed it. But I have to thank my laziness in a sense. Because of it lower grades don’t work me up as much as they used to. I feel a little less stressed when it comes to school and I’m glad for that.

Unfortunately if I give 100% effort to school my sites and my writing may become neglected. I need to figure out a balance between hobbies and school because I know I can’t do 100% either way anymore.

Speaking of writing though, I finally updated Sky’s Content! Click here if you wish to read it. This chapter was more of a Yuri chapter than a Shikamaru chapter. Not much happened between the two of them. But it’s a good one! I like it because its a turning point for Yuri. She finally starts to move on from all the horrible stuff that’s happened to her. I guess her and I have been in sort of the same boat lately, so I can relate.

Also if you haven’t checked it out, my portfolio has finally been set up. Only the main page works right now though, none of the links are set up yet. I set up the databases and the subdomains for each of them, I just need to get working on them.

Question for the comments: What are your thoughts on going back to school?

Who Wants to See Karol's To Do List? :D

So I’m thinking. I go to this site multiple times a day. Like maybe 10-15 times depending on the day. So if I post my to-do list on here (with some slight modifications for teh intarwebs) I might feel more inclined to do some of the things on there. Also you will know why I haven’t done much on the site like at all in the past… 3 months.

Otherwise just ignore this post and read the one below it about Liar and it’s book cover. It’s a very interesting topic!

SCHOOL RELATED Update resume Back to school shopping Buy text books Work Report Pay school tuition BOOK RELATED Read Time Traveler’s Wife How to Grow a Novel HTML/CSS book 3,4,5,6,7,8 Finish brainstorming for book (REPLOTTING) Sky’s Content Chapter 14 Bombastic Love Chapter… 8? OTHER Finish Supernatural re-watch Clean Room Clear out computer – purge then defrag

WEBSITE Update layout on school program’s website. Set Up Portfolio Finish layout Set up FanUpdate Set up databases Designs Coding Show code and implementation Stories Sky’s Content Bombastic Love Set up onlyakiss.net version 2.5 with updated pages History About me Terms FAQ Affiliate request Clear the website of useless pages/images if not already gone

The source code for that list up there ^^ is really messy and unorganized, but it looks so neat! So yeah, gotta do this in a month, on top of a full time co-op job… Yay me!

Edit: This list seems to be never ending. Omg. NEVER ENDING I SAY.

"Liar" by Justine Larbalestier

So if you guys know anything that’s been going around the Young Adult (YA) world lately you know about this controversy surrounding the book Liar by Justine Larbalestier. Basically what’s happening is that the main protagonist in the book is an African American or otherwise black female, while the cover displays a white, Caucasian female. This has sort of caused an uproar in the YA community because people are really beginning to question covers, and what publishers will do to make books seem more ‘marketable’.

In her original blog post: Ain’t That a Shame, Justine explains that authors usually do not get any say in their covers. This holds true usually for what appears to be one reason: authors are not graphic designers. They usually have no experience in knowing what will sell to people, which is why they have no say. And apparently according to publishers, black covers do not sell as well as white covers.

Now this could be entirely true. They could have a million different statistics that show that black covers do not sell as much, but is that all that really matters in publishing these days? I know that the publishing market is dwindling as less and less people appear to be reading, but I think there needs to be a cut off point as to how far publishers will go.

But here’s the thing, as important as covers are, how many people these days ACTUALLY judge a book based on it’s cover? The last three books I bought were: The Time Traveler’s Wife, How to Grow a Novel, and A Clockwork Orange. Why did I buy them? Well, I bought The Time Traveler’s Wife by Audrey Niffenegger because I saw the movie trailer and thought it was a good concept. I bought How to Grow a Novel by Sol Stein because I heard from Kaleb Nation that it was an excellent writing book. Lastly, I bought A Clockwork Orange by Anthony Burgess because I asked my brother what book to buy and he suggested that one.

I did not buy any of those books for their covers. In fact I didn’t even know what the covers looked like until I saw them on the amazon.ca page. And the next few books I’m going to buy is because a.) a friend recommended them, b.) I like the author, or c.) I see another movie trailer and think I must have it.

So in the case of Liar would having a book with a black female really take away from their costs? Is it really that important that the cover looks pretty and nice?

Then again, race is not the only thing publishers like to disregard these days when it comes to covers. A lot of the times, as pointed out by Maureen Johnson in her blogTV today, women authors typically tend to have more girly covers than male authors.

I know that I would really dislike it if the cover for my book that I’m planning was geared only towards females. My book is an urban fantasy, and I feel it is not geared to any sex in particular. Although I am a girl, I usually never like girly things. Like when I was young, I would be playing with my brother’s toy cars instead of my barbies. Now, I play violent video games (like Gears of War for instance) because they’re more fun than Nintendogs.

I guess the ultimate question is what makes a book sell? Is it the cover? Is it word of mouth? Is it movies? In my opinion, a fancy cover is nice, but people don’t read a book because it has a fancy cover. They read a book because they want to know the story inside (and/or are forced to read the book by school systems).

Question for the Comments: Why do you buy the books you buy? (i.e. based off cover, because of a friend recommends them, etc)

July is Officially the Craziest Month of My Life

So if you guys do not know by now what happened to me in the past month, then that must mean you’re new here to onlyakiss.net! In that case, grab a tissue because this is going to be heart wrenching. And for those of you who know what’s been happening, this is going to be my final thoughts on the subject that you will probably ever hear about in my blog.

So on June 30^th, my grandfather in Chile died. Because of my lack of passport (my fault) I was unable to go. I had to stay home without a license (also my fault), take care of my cancerous cats (I’ll get to that in a minute) and also go to work which was a 2 hour bus ride away.

July started off with a kick, having to wake up at 6am, leave my house by 7am only to arrive at work at 9am. Then if I didn’t leave work early enough I would miss a bus, and next thing you know, it’s 6:30 and I’ve missed the last stop for the bus that gets closest to my house. So I have to take another bus that gets me a 30 minute walk away from home. Did I mention this whole time it was raining?

That was a rough week for me, but then we get to the cancerous cats. That’s right, I said catS, meaning both of my childhood pets had terminal cancer. On July 17 we put down Rosco, the cat I went to the pet store and picked out myself. He had a tumour in his jaw and it had gotten to the point where he couldn’t eat anymore. He wasn’t ready to go, we could all tell when we took him to the vet. But we had no choice.

Then after we put Rosco down, my other cat, Felix got considerably worse. He was around 16 years old and because of his age he was more susceptible to kidney disease. Then on top of that, he also had a mass around his stomach and a tumour in his eye. They never really knew what type of cancer he had, I’m pretty sure they suspect it was some form of leukemia. In less than a week after Rosco went Felix degenerated to the point where he couldn’t move. It was so painful for him to walk or even stand that all he would do is just sit in the same place all day.

So the following Thursday, six days after Rosco left us we went to put down Felix. We went to the same room, put Felix down in the same spot and went through the exact same motions we did when we put down Rosco. It was so eerie how similar it was. But then after we put down Felix I noticed something I didn’t see in Rosco. Felix looked peaceful. Felix was ready to go, he was suffering and now he was no longer in pain. That moment was probably the most uplifting for me as I knew from then I could start healing. That the worst was gone.

And starting from that night I began to pray every night. I’m Roman Catholic and up until now I’ve never really been religious. Most of my faith had come from my grandmother and aunt’s blind faith in God. But now, after all this has happened I really feel like that I have no choice but to believe in God, or at least believe that there is some sort of higher power.

After the month that I had I simply refuse to believe that all the bad things that managed to happen to me in a span of three weeks is chance. That it was just random doings that were coincidental. If I were to believe in that then I would see no point in believing in humanity and the world as a whole. So my only option is to believe that something good has come out of all of this. That there is a reason that both my cats, my close family died within a week of each other. That my grandfather died, leaving my family in turmoil. There has to be a reason. There just has to.

So now that July is finally over I feel like I can move on. Although it is sort of hard when in the past two days you have dreamed that your cats were alive and well. That they still jumped on your bed and assaulted your face with theirs in an attempt to wake you up. That they were still outside in the backyard just enjoying the warmth and the freedom.

But hey I got to look on the bright side of things. In the past month I have done more brainstorming and more general plot ideas for my novels than I have done in months. I feel like it’s gotten to the point where I can be proud of what I’ve thought of. I have also realized that I have no choice but to write; that I wouldn’t be Karol if I wasn’t a writer as well. I’m still going to pursue Software Engineering, but I’m going to have an English minor attached to it.

So now all I can do is try to move on. Try to do what I think is best for me at this point in time and hope that it is the right decision. After all if July has taught me anything worth value, it’s that life can turn on you at any given point, so you need to turn on it first. You need to decide what you’re going to do, and not let life drag you around until you die.

Working in a Male Dominated Field

Being interested in Math, Programming, Science, etc. I’ve chosen a career that’s entirely male dominated. I’ve also chosen a career where English is not the first language of a majority of the people I know. But that’s an entirely different blog post.

Out of the 120 people in my program, Software Engineering, only 12 of them are girls. And I am the only hispanic girl in the entire program (well at least for my year).

At work, in the team I’m working in, there are only two girls, I am one of them.

What I don’t get is the apparent dislike most girls have for programming and/or engineering. Is it because there are so many guys? Is it because there are other appealing things like the social sciences? law? English? arts in general? Because out of all the girls I know, either they like Math and Science or they don’t. It’s never a ‘Like math, hate science’ or ‘like science, hate math’. I just don’t get it.

Is it because it’s too confusing and difficult? Lawl. I’m sorry that was even really sexist for me and I hate being subjected to sexism. Like I can understand if they find differential or integral calculus hard, but seriously, what’s so bad about it?

In my opinion being a hispanic girl in a male dominated field is an advantage. I know for a fact that some companies picked me for an interview because I was a girl in Software Engineering. Girls are naturally more detail orientated than boys, which means a lot in programming. Whether it’s to comment code, or to error trap, being detail oriented helps.

Overall though I’d rather be in a male dominated field that I enjoy, then go into a field that’s evenly dispersed or female dominated that I disdain. It doesn’t really matter who it is that’s around you (to some extent at least), all that matters is if you enjoy it!

Not to mention, it feels nice when I do things better than boys that are all cocky and arrogant. :p

Blah, all this talk about work and male dominated fields is reminding me that I need to update my resume. SO THAT I CAN PWN ALL THE BOYS.

Authors and their characters

It’s sort of weird how characters and authors interact. For some people its like their characters are this other voice in their head, while for others they are only displayed through paper. But when it gets to the point where the characters write the story, the author is no longer making the characters, they are discovering who they are.

In the novel I’m writing I basically took my personality traits and said ‘This character will have this one. And this character will have this trait’ and let them make decisions based off that being their main personality trait. But even when I did that, I found that I knew what characters would do in a situation, but I never knew why they did it. Then as I added more characters, more plot changes, more setting changes, everything sort of fell into place. I started to realize ‘OH, this character does this because ______, _______, and ______’.

I’m only writing about this today because I’ve been feeling nervous a lot lately, and I just keep thinking ‘I have NO clue how Yuri can put up with this ALL THE TIME’. (Yuri being the main character in Sky’s Content.) Because she likes/loves Shikamaru she always gets those butterflies, she always get flushed and she ALWAYS overreacts. Like I know I take Yuri to the extreme on the nervousness, but still.

The only real positive thing I can think of that can come from this nervousness (aside from what’s actually causing the nervousness, the reason is a good one) is that I now have so many more ways to describe Yuri’s nervousness it’s fantastic!

But then you get those characters that are just not like you at all and you wonder how they even came into existence. Like one of the main females in my novel is very family oriented; her entire character is based off the loyalty she feels for her family. Like don’t get me wrong, I am close to my family, but she takes it to the extreme. It’s the ONLY way I can describe her because it influences everything she does.

And then there are the characters you just love to hate and hate to love. There is one male character in my novel that is so warped and twisted, but he is absolutely my favourite character without a doubt. I just felt an instant connection with him when I made him. We probably wouldn’t be friends or anything, in fact I’m pretty sure he would hate me if he knew me. But he just pulls me into him, and that’s why I hate to love him -_-

In the end though, characters are not just characters. They’re not just people you write about in pages, and that’s it. They influence not only the authors, but the people who read the book. Whether its a good influence or a bad one, they make a difference.

Question for the Comments: What is your favourite character from something that you’ve read/written?

Writing

I have been writing stories since around 2004, so about five years now. It’s one of my biggest passions even though it didn’t start out that way. In elementary school I was LUCKY to get a 70% or a B- in English. In fact I always did better in French than I did in English! I really hated how wordy it had to be; it felt like no matter what I wrote it was never right. Which really sucked for me because I was your typical nerd who was outcasted by the other kids, so grades was all I really had…

ANYWAYS, so I get to grade 8-9 and I start reading fan fiction. That’s when I realize that writing could be interesting! That it wasn’t all boring readings that teachers gave you where you had to analyze and answer questions. Granted the first couple of fan fictions I read were horribly written and horribly thought up. But hey, it was the first thing that actually spiked my writing interest.

Then around the end of 2004 I started to write my own fan fictions. I always had ideas on how to change anime to my liking, and admittedly I had usually put myself as the main character. But then again I still do that in my current stories; it helps me to understand how the character is supposed to be feeling. (For instance, Yuri appeals to my more shy and emotional side).

That’s around the time I started to pay attention in English class! I wanted to get better in English because I started to realize the suck that was my writing skills. And because of that my English marks rose up into the low 90’s or an A.

So now it’s about five years after I started and I’m still writing fan fiction. Well only my Shikamaru story and that’s because I want to finish it. It was always a series that I loved to think of ideas for. And in the past two months I’ve written about 60 pages worth for it. I was a little worried with the dry spell I had in 2008 that I was losing my passion for writing. As in 2008 I wrote a whopping 4 chapters, but when I wrote 5 chapters in a month for Sky’s Content I realized it was just the situation I was in at the time.

But now it’s about time for me to branch out of fan fiction and to write my own original stories. Which, will hopefully one day become my own novels.

I’ve been working on this idea for a story for about a year and two months. It originated from a role play a friend and I started back in 2006 I think. I just loved the concept and we never finished roleplaying what I had planned out for the story. So now about a million setting changes, and about 10 main/secondary characters later, I’m pretty sure I’m ready to start writing.

Although, I have to admit at this point I have NO clue if the story is any good. But if it’s managed to keep my interest for more than a year, that has to say something right? I think I have only told about 3 people little snippets of plot details here and there (In a year!). Even then, some of those plot things has changed since I told them. But they seemed to like the concept so hopefully it’s not that bad! Haha.

But before I want to write the story I want to do a TON of reading. Reading is a major step in improving your writing. You get introduced to not only different writing styles, but different types of voices, and not to mention you generally widen your vocabulary. I know my voice, I just gotta concentrate on the style now

But yeah, that’s basically writing and how it relates to me!

Question for the comments: If you write, how did you get started?

Sky's Content

For those of you who don’t know what Sky’s Content is, it’s the Shikamaru fan fiction I am currently writing. I wanted to write something about Sky’s Content behind the scenes because I think it’s rather interesting. Plus I want to go more into detail about somethings that I think you guys should know.

SPOILER ALERT! SPOILER ALERT! SPOILER ALERT!

First off, I started the first chapter of Sky’s Content sort of randomly. I didn’t have a plot planned and I didn’t really think that flowers for Yuri was going to be SO important. I remember sitting in my grade 11 English class coming up with the original plot of the story, writing out everything that happens chapter by chapter.

Then as I started to write the chapters I found that I wanted some stuff to happen later, and that I should add in something random to fill in the space. And so far that’s been almost every chapter of Sky’s Content. Ironically enough, as I wrote these ‘filler’ chapters the story molded into something completely different. I started to think of new ways the story could progress and now the plot is completely different than what I wrote on that piece of paper all those years ago.

The first ‘filler’ was the whole Mitsuyu thing. She was never supposed to be there, but I used that to help Shikamaru and Yuri realize that they like each other. Then the next ‘filler’ was the trip to Suna. THAT came out of nowhere. I was like ‘Ok. Chapter 7. Shikamaru’s POV. GO. “It had been about a week now since Yuri left to visit her father in Suna.” WTF. SUNA?!’

Ok, so it wasn’t really like that. But it did come out of nowhere.

I originally had wanted Yuri’s neck to be slashed in chapter 8, but I thought that I should expand on the Suna trip some more. And since I always liked the idea of characters getting sick, and using that as a bonding experience, I used that for chapter 8.

Little tidbit: In chapter 8 when Shikamaru was leaning in, his intention was actually to kiss her. Yuri can judge Shikamaru’s actions pretty well; she’s very observant. Then after that attempt to kiss her failed, he decided not to try it again until Yuri stopped being so embarrassed.

Then chapter 9 was the first real plot thing that was PLANNED to happen. It took me a while to get through that chapter, but I’m glad I did. The entire series at that point had nothing to do with ninjas or fighting, and I really felt like it needed some sort of ninja aspect. It was then that I realized what was the biggest factor getting in between Yuri and Shikamaru: he’s a ninja and she’s not.

I know, I know. I pointed that out in chapter 7 with Shikamaru. But I didn’t realize the gravity of it until the end of chapter 9.

Then chapter 10 came out very easily (It might have been because I procrastinating on studying exams…), but I knew every emotion that Yuri would be feeling, I knew that she was crack and break into a million pieces, and I knew that her father was going to forbid her from seeing Shikamaru. What was harder for me to grasp was how Shikamaru was feeling. I knew he would feel guilty but I didn’t really know HOW he would deal with it.

So I took the opportunity before working on chapter 11 to watch the Naruto Shippuuden episodes where Asuma dies and Shikamaru takes down Hidan. I LEARNED A LOT about him from those episodes. I realized that in my head I was making him out to be more indifferent and lazy than he actually was at that point. I thought that he would probably end up keeping his feelings to himself. But I realized, if it will make things easier for him, he’ll do anything. Including staying with Yuri.

And then when I wrote chapter 11.5 I really just wanted to show the contrast between Yuri and Shikamaru. If you notice, Shikamaru concentrates more on the fact that he needs to make a decision. He knows how he feels and he weighs the options of what he can do. He doesn’t go into much detail about kissing, or feelings.

Yuri on the other hand, everything for her is feelings. The constant feeling of the hole getting bigger. She already knows how deeply she cares for Shikamaru and she knows that she should get over him. But she doesn’t. She tries to cling to him because she loves him and if Shikamaru hadn’t ultimately decided to stay with her, she would have gone insane. She wouldn’t have recovered like Shikamaru thought she would, but that’s because he didn’t realize at the time the gravity of her feelings.

But then again, there are some things that I purposely made the same for them. For example, their dislike of sand as noted in the Suna saga of the story. I purposely made the wording almost exactly the same. Although some things that were similar I didn’t even realize I put in.

Lastly, chapter 12. What you have to realize is that usually between each chapter, weeks or even months go by. Yuri and Shikamaru have TONS of normal conversations, and spend time together normally. Everything in the chapters were usually things that related to their relationship progressing. So chapter 12 was a chapter to show those normal conversations, and to show those normal hang outs. They’re best friends, not just boyfriend and girlfriend.

Not to mention, the whole waking Shikamaru up thing was so cute :p

So now the story will continue to deal with their relationship and how they deal with him being a ninja. Not to mention it will deal with the aftermath of what happened in chapter 9, and how both Yuri and Shikamaru grow from it.

I hope you guys enjoy reading the series as much as I love writing it. It’s the one story I have put the MOST effort in.

Here are some goodies. They are drawings of Yuri and Shikamaru I did from like, last summer. It’s weird how easily it was to draw them together:

My favourite ones are the first one and the third one. So the images on the left side

My Braces Got Into a Fist Fight With Me, and Won

Ok, so that title isn’t exactly literal. But it gets my point across pretty clearly: My braces has caused me so much pain in the past few days that I actually think being beat up wouldn’t have hurt this bad.

Let me explain the back story. So basically, Tuesday I went to my orthodontist to get my top braces adjusted, and my bottom ones placed on. I didn’t really think of it as a big deal since I had already gotten my top braces and it wasn’t so bad.

I was wrong. Horribly, horribly wrong.

About an hour after they put my bottom braces, I was in a meeting at work and I began to feel pain. They told me that some pain is normal, so I shrug it off. Then about two hours later I was so in so much pain I had to stop what I was doing and hold my jaw because it hurt so bad.

Now by this point I had already taken pain medications such as: tylenol 2, and tylenol 3. If you don’t know what those are, those are the heavy duty pain killers that you can only get prescribed. So I managed to get through work and when I got home I called the orthodontist’s emergency number.

When they called me back about 4 hours later, I tried to explain to them that I was in horrible pain. That it didn’t even hurt this bad when I got my wisdom teeth out two years ago. They brushed me off and said ‘Pain is normal’ and basically hung up on me.

So today I wake up and I’m like ‘hey it doesn’t hurt that bad’, then about ten minutes later I’m downstairs taking a tylenol 3. Which was a horrible idea considering at work today I had WHMIS training. For those of you who knows what WHMIS is, you can guess why you shouldn’t mix drugs that make you drowsy and WHMIS in the same sitting.

Needless to say, it felt like my entire body was in sleep mode, yet I was still awake. It was hard to freaking BREATH because it felt like I was taking the shallow breaths I would when I was sleeping.

After the longest and most tiring two hours of my life, I talked to my supervisor and I left work. Yes. I left work because my mouth was hurting from my braces. That’s how bad it was.

Then after I leave work my dad and I go down the orthodontist office and we decide that we are not going to leave until I see someone. I mean like, I had to leave WORK because of this. So we go in and I walk up to the receptionist and start explaining. I knew about 5 seconds into talking to her, she wanted to brush me off and send me home.

My dad pushed her, and she conceded because she probably didn’t want us to make a scene. Then about 3 explanations later, the orthodontist tells me that I have really sensitive teeth. He explains how most people are ok with the wire they put, but every once in a while they get someone who is REALLY sensitive.

I had to learn my teeth are sensitive by experiencing two days of excruciating pain. How lovely.

Anyways, so they put in a thinner wire (one that they usually use for people with gum disease) that has relieved some of the pressure, and now the pain feels normal.

This whole ordeal has taught me the importance of being assertive. Because I am one of those people who usually walks into stuff or falls down, and gets back up like nothing happened. I have a HIGH pain tolerance (as I have been told repeatedly by doctors), so complaining about pain was not something I was used to. In fact, I sort of hate complaining about pain because I don’t want to seem like a drama queen.

So when I was complaining about this pain I sort of felt really, really dumb. Which is probably why I let them brush me off on the phone the first time.

But the most frustrating thing of all of this (besides the pain), is the fact that they blew me off like I was just whining. When I have to take heavy duty prescription pills to get MOST of the pain to disappear, I am not whining, I am in PAIN.

Moral of this story: Trust your gut, and don’t let others convince you that you’re wrong. SPEAK UP AND BE ASSERTIVE!

Dreams

Dream are weird things you know. I’m not your typical person who has dreams about the last thing they think about, or has dreams related to things they’re worried about. My dreams are so freaking crazy and out there, that most of my stories come from dreams because I know I wouldn’t have EVER come up with this information consciously.

I bring this up because last night I had around 3 or 4 different dreams, two of them I remember very vividly.

The first of the two was in a tree house. A gigantic, furniture filled tree house. I believe that I went into the tree house in the previous dream, but now the sequence was all different. I was in a futon, and Edward Cullen was in there with me.

Now let me point out, usually in my dreams the point of view I am is usually not me. (I know, sounds convenient right?) But this time I’m pretty sure the point of view I was in was Bella’s. At least I don’t want to think of it as me, because really Edward Cullen is not my type of guy.

There was this tense atmosphere as everything was quiet and like I just knew this was the moment right before he bites Bella/Me in the neck. And the entire thing was just the anticipation, he never ended up biting. The atmosphere is what makes it the most memorable of the dreams because it was so… intriguing. I definitely want to try to mimic that same atmosphere in a story.

Then the next memorable dream was about a dream later; the one I had just before I woke up. It was like I was in a video game where I had swords, guns, daggers, etc. and I was just killing enemies. Like I believe the dream before it was someone trying to murder me in my house and I was defending myself. But eventually it turned into a full out video game sequence. I mean like, at the end I was overwhelmed by enemies and narrowly escaped, only to find out that I had lost after I got to the final room.

It was interesting because none of the weapons I had seemed to work correctly. The swords were always a little flimsy; I kept trying to find one that was actually like hard steel. The daggers I never got to use, and the guns always had like 5 bullets to use before it was empty.

That’s the way my dreams always are when I have weapons, it makes a little sad ;_; I would like weapons that work considering dreams are the ONLY times I can use them to kill stuff in semi real life.

Blah, for all you dream interpreters got any idea what flawed weapons indicate :P? Haha.

Ah man, Edward Cullen. And that was the first time I dreamt of him too.