It’s August and so school is looming over me as I realize that on September 15th, a month from now it will be the second day of class (and ironically my birthday). School has always been a very… weird thing for me. When I moved to the city I currently reside in I was in fourth grade. The people in my elementary school and I didn’t really get along so I started to concentrate on school more than rough housing at recess. It was then that I discovered that I was one of those ‘gifted’ children, AKA people someone with a high enough IQ that it was noticeable how much more intelligent I was than others.
Once I started to excel in school it started to become the norm, and next thing you knew if I had anything less than 90% in anything it was a fail to me. I remember in grade 10 I was so angry when I learned my science grade was 87% that my religion teacher made a big fuss about how ‘In 10 years, grades won’t matter’. I’m still angry about that science class because I finished with an 89% in that course.
Then in grade 11 I was so angry at a 3+ (78%) I had received in ONE section of my math test that I proceeded to rip up a friend’s test (because he wouldn’t let me rip mine) into pieces so small that a paper shredder was no competition for me.
Then I hit university and next thing you know I give up on school. I had spent so many years trying and because of my high expectations having to deal with lots of disappointments. The -only- time I was ever satisfied with a grade was my grade 12 Physics mark because I had set out for a 95% in that course and got it.
Now that first year is done my average is around 74%, your ‘typical’ university average. Mind you this is the year that I gave up on school to the point where I actually didn’t hand in assignments because I was too lazy. So my mindset is, if I can get the normal average with NO EFFORT whatsoever, what can I get with 100% effort?
Well I intend on finding out next term. I’m tired of having such low grades. I don’t want to leave a midterm worried that I failed it. But I have to thank my laziness in a sense. Because of it lower grades don’t work me up as much as they used to. I feel a little less stressed when it comes to school and I’m glad for that.
Unfortunately if I give 100% effort to school my sites and my writing may become neglected. I need to figure out a balance between hobbies and school because I know I can’t do 100% either way anymore.
Speaking of writing though, I finally updated Sky’s Content! Click here if you wish to read it. This chapter was more of a Yuri chapter than a Shikamaru chapter. Not much happened between the two of them. But it’s a good one! I like it because its a turning point for Yuri. She finally starts to move on from all the horrible stuff that’s happened to her. I guess her and I have been in sort of the same boat lately, so I can relate.
Also if you haven’t checked it out, my portfolio has finally been set up. Only the main page works right now though, none of the links are set up yet. I set up the databases and the subdomains for each of them, I just need to get working on them.
Question for the comments: What are your thoughts on going back to school?
By: Angela @ http://sayarynth.com
ReplyDeleteI hate you. I forgot most universities don’t start until September. I started Thursday.
As far as giving 100% to school, I’m trying to and I did the last couple of weeks of summer to finish my assignments but I’ll give you a hint: I haven’t written or made real updates on my site for 3 weeks. Take a gander why. School really does take a lot of out a student. I miss writing, I miss coding, I miss making silly little icons. I do. But school has become my first priority. :/
That’s life I suppose. Good luck with everything!
And…. My thoughts on going back to school? My life got a lot more relaxed. Summer was hell. I have time now. I love it. Still don’t have the writing/updating inspiration but I think that’ll come with time. Also Nightingale is my senior project.