One Year

It's interesting how much your life can change in one year. It's hard to believe that it's been a year of blogging already! Well it's almost, I think I started this on the 24th. Regardless I just can't believe how different things are now then they were last May 22.

This time last year was hell for me. I was in a bad place for a really long time and I finally feel like I'm getting out of it. I still remember the exact days everything happened. April 24th, the day after my last exam I found out my cat, Rosco was going to die. After I found out I knew my other cat Felix was going to go soon after, but on June 5th I found out he was going to die from cancer, not from grief. Then on June 30th my grandfather died. On July 17 we put Rosco down and on July 23rd, 6 days later we put Felix down.

God it so weird talking about it. In the past year I've kept repeating it in my head over and over, the various numbers. How close each of them were to one another.

Ironically, something from the Private Practice season finale really got to me that sort of relates to this. In the finale when Dell found out he had another brain bleed he was telling Betsy, his daughter, not to be sad because everything bad that was ever going to happen to her already happened in such a short time. So nothing could ever be worse.

I don't really know what more I can say without being too personal. I'm all for being more open in blogs but I think there's a point where it's too much.

I just wanted to say mostly that I was in a bad place and a lot of things suffered because of it. And now a year later all I can do now is try to make up for everything I've let slide since then. It's still hard to believe just how different in mentality and just being I am now as opposed to then. I obviously still have my issues, everyone does, but I'm different now. Hopefully for the better.